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Short term goals…not resolutions

I think it is easy to get mired up in a grand long-term goal. I have set a couple of simple short-term goals that I will succeed with.

#1 Lose 5 lbs by Jan 15th…3.75 lbs gone so far

#2 Lose a total of 10 lbs by Feb 1st.

The first goal will get me back to where I was before the season of feasting but I think it is better to look at it  as a success than getting back to where I was before I “failed”. I am already feeling so much happier with a little bit of success.

More goals to come.

What is a short-term goal you want to make?


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Why so sad?


Betty Draper "coping with her cigarette"

Betty Draper from Mad Men "coping with her cigarette"

I am finding depression and anxiety very prevalent in the women I see going through the medical system. It does not seem to matter what socio-economic bracket these women are from they appear to be equally touched by these disorders.

Have there always been this many women struggling with depression and anxiety? Is there more pressure on women now, are we less stimulated, not as connected to our physical self, living in our heads. Did women used to cope in different ways that are not acceptable anymore, such as heavy duty anti-anxiety meds such as valium and the non prescription Merlot? Do women have more pressure on them, more requirements of their time and attention? Or is it a higher report rate; are women just more open with talking about their challenges and willing to accept treatment?

I am not sure of the answer. I have not done any kind of study but I really am surprised how many women seem to be struggling with these potentially debilitating disorders.

Could it be that women in the past have asked for the right to do everything and now our generation is paying the price? Great, now we get to care for the kids, work full-time, handle the banking, food shop, make the food, clean up after the food, wash, fold and put away the laundry, pets to the vet, buy the pet food, and so on and so on, not to mention mowing the lawn, and taking out the garbage. What happened to the pink and blue jobs?

What is to be done about depression and anxiety? I know that I suffer from a low to moderate anxiety. I am a worrier. I sometimes get a cramp in the pit of my stomach when I forget what I was worrying about, then I remember and I feel a sense of relief when I am able to go back to worrying again. I have experienced and acute depression before and it was not fun.

We are often so concerned with our physical health and appearance, what is so different about taking care of our mental health?

For me the things that have been helping me control my anxiety is EXERCISE. What do you know exercise can help keep you physically and mentally healthy? Fighting chaos by keeping my house in order, planning meals, looking ahead on the calendar, all help me keep the anxiety at bay.

People who are self described type A’s are really employing a self protection device. They know their limits for anxiety and they set boundaries for what is acceptable to them. I kind of understand now. I do have a bit of the Type A in me but there is also a messy rebel who does not want to do all of the cleaning on her list (wink Mom).

Not really sure where this rant is going…I wonder if there is a study or a master’s thesis in the study of women’s mental health.

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Nearly there

Me with my beautiful girls on their 11th birthday

Me with my beautiful girls on their 11th birthday

I am closing in on  my weigh loss goal and I am finding myself swinging between being totally on plan, focused and being chaotic and bingey. I think that I have reconciled with the fact that I will be exercising frequently,with intensity for the rest of my life. Exercise is not just for weight loss it is for creating and maintaining a healthy body. There I said it. I used to often wonder why “skinny people” were wasting their time in the gym. Hmm they want a healthy body.

I found myself in to the 170’s (barely but I was there) and then the weekend happened and then a week of 12 hour shifts slammed me in the face. The key to my success is preparedness. Easy enough said….I would love to make a weekly plan and then just stick to it, but alas my schedule is different every week and then there are kids, activities, weather changes, sick family members,commitments , extra work…. The planning and scheduling needs to be a consistent effort.  Some times I just want to stomp my feet and pout, but alas I must go on.

Goals for the week:

Exercise daily, 15 min walk upon waking and then 45-60 min at the or running or cycling.

Have meals planned and food purchased

Family doing their part

Setting boundaries re: extra work

I am going to set the timer for 20 min for house cleaning then off to the gym then eat lunch, then rest before the kids get home., then food shop, make dinner, then go to work for 12 hour night shift.

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rain, mosquitos and KD

Balfour ferry 2009

Balfour ferry 2009

It has taken me a long time to get excited about camping, especially with kids and dogs. You may wonder why I wouldn’t like to enjoy the great outdoors in all of it’s glory…I do not like to be dirty, there I said it. I do not like chaos. We went camping in the Kootenay’s for 4 nights and it was bloody awful, it rained and rained, the mosquitoes were having a population boom. Golly we were troopers, running from the tents to the shelter of the car and back again. Our big boy Chocolate lab Hoha was so afraid of the thunder he had to sleep in the back of the car, he is a bit of a princess.

 As I am trying to be and optomist, the great part of the trip were visiting family and seeing the really cool location for the Shambhala festival  my little sister Amanda is feeding all of the hard working volunteers and coordination the vendors.

wicked artwork at the festival site

wicked artwork at the festival site

Camping can be fun and it can be awful… for the most part I tried to make good choices but it is really difficult to avoid the chips and marshmallows. I do not like being deprived. I come back to the main lesson I have learned in this weight loss journey. Try to make good choices, if you slip pull up your socks and move on …get your ass to the gym, go for a run. It is not possible to gain 60 lbs over a weekend.

I have eaten really well for the past three days and I have my meals planned for the week. I had a killer workout last night. I am ready to kick some ass.

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Epiphanies and other things

 how i felt this week

how i felt this week

 I may have had a poor weight loss week but I have learned an immense amount about myself. I really do not like the weight loss blogs or forums that are a breeding ground for whining and self pity.  I realize that life is not all sunshine and roses, but I choose to make my blog a positive, inspirational place. That being said I need to walk through the events of the past week and how they manifested in to a small temporary weight gain.

My epiphany is the understanding of how so many parts of my life and interconnected and influence my health and wellbeing.

I worked 3 day shifts in a row with a night thrown in on the end. I just couldn’t seem to get myself to bed on time and my hours of sleep suffered. By the time my night shift rolled around I ended up with a full blown cold. Talk about immune response.

With this cold I couldn’t even think about exercising, could not breathe through my nose. I progressively became more and more grumpy. I became short tempered with the kids and everyone around me. The more my mood sunk the more my carb cravings became evident. I have confirmed that I try to elevate my mood by eating carbs.

During this time there was a fair amount of stress in my life due to a really messy house (renos) and talking about selling one of our vehicles. In the past, when I was stressed I would reach out for simple carbs like pasta, bread and rice, because the are plain and “easy to digest”. I have since figured out that I probably have a wheat sensitivity which causes worse digestive upset.

Talk about vicious cycle. The only way to get out of this cycle is to smash it. My dear friend suggested we go for a run on Tues and I agreed on the spot. Come Tues, I was starting to try to think of reasons to cancel…I did have a cold you know.

Well…I did the run! And it was wonderful. We ran for 4-5 k and finished strong. I took charge of strategic piles of mess at home and have my bedroom mostly organized and I will have fresh sheets to climb in to when I get off nights.

Planning is key to success. By now I am very good at making my dinner the night before work. There is more I can do, and a big part of that is asking for help in a clear and direct way. I thought about some small things that would make my life easier over the next couple of day and asked my family for the help. If people don’t know your needs they most likely will not be able to anticipate them. As painful as it is I am trying to ask for what I need/want and not hope someone will read my mind. “Well shouldn’t they be able to figure it out?”  Maybe they won’t, save yourself the frustration and ask when you need help.

Here’s to a better week ahead!

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Chores, chores, chores…

the image i found when i googled chaos

the image i found when i googled chaos

I am at the end of my rope with the paper that comes in to the house.  No matter how many times I sort, file, and recycle the frickin paper it is still drowning me. I find it so hard to focus on making me a better me when the house is so chaotic. I feel that the kids should be pitching in more, but then they get home from they are so exhausted, or there is an after school activity,and then before you know it bed time rolls around. I suppose I also don’t want to be a slave driver… but I am not doing them any favours but not instilling a work ethic in them. I am obsessed with Till Debt Do Us Part a money managment show on TV. Gail has articles on her website about kids and money. 

We have done the chore chart before with good success, but any program works only as well as the people behind it. I have struggled with paying the kids for chores or giving them an allowance to help them learn how to manage money and they have to do chores for no compensation because they are part of a family. For the most part when I as the girls to do something they are quite accomodating.

I wonder if live will be a continuous cycle of tearing stuff out of closets, leaving it in a pile for weeks and then finally stuffing it somewhere else because company is coming.

Do you have any ideas for keeping organized?

What does this all have to do with running? In the past I have let myself spiral in to a depression and give up exercise when I am feeling overwhelmed by the mess and chaos. So it is all related and needs to be address in order to be successful.

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